Gratitude 17 … Resolve
Today I am grateful for the ability to persist — not a “strength” fueled by fear or a “confidence” fueled by a certainty of religious faith, but rather a Strength that is available when we are deathly afraid and yet stride forth anyway; a calm resolve that settles over us when we choose to risk pain & danger, even when completely uncertain of God’s grace.
Here, I speak of a resilience that has us pressing ever onward – even in the throes of terror or drowning in the fog of doubt. It is a higher “Faith”; one that maintains the calm & courageous composure necessary for us to know fear but Do Good anyway; for us to know doubt yet walk onward anyway. It is this persistence of moral direction that fuels our will to continue when times are tough, as well as maintain our focus-of-Purpose when times are pleasant …
This Resolve is an internal Friend who rests calmly next to us in times of trouble; a Friend who waits for us in every foyer while we struggle to douse the stresses of finance & love; a Friend who sits and smiles quietly in the corner at every dazed celebration & every hollow victory …
… waiting patiently …
… waiting to take us Home.
And all we must do to walk her smooth Way is to remain diligent in our search for her companionship; to repeatedly set aside our self-focused musings & goals & addictions; to do so just long enough to notice her — walking quietly beside us all along.
And she is indeed always there — smiling; waiting with infinite patience for us to cease my petty searching for “the better path”, “the more important task” or the “missing information” — for us to let those vanities go and simply set forth with her to Do the Good that is already there to be Done …
Resolve is indeed most faithful — always both beside and within us … ever there for us whenever we have the courage to choose to go anyway, leap anyway, forgive anyway, love anyway …
And for this I am ever so thankful.
And so it is that I climb to my proverbial mountaintop, take a deep breath filled with profound reverence, and let loose with a long & loud –
Thank Youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu!
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